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This is a personal blog with text posts full of rants, random babbling and blurting out thoughts. It's not very interesting and I don't intend to be. I just want to document my life and in a way it's a 365 project. I want to see if I change in a year and how.
My main blog is much more entertaining, click the navigation for more.

I know it’s not good to shut out people and to push them away but at this point in my life I am no longer mentally stable to even do this anymore. I can’t think about anyone anymore. I can’t worry about anyone anymore. I can’t fucking cry over anyone anymore. I have to stop fucking having so many feelings and being so fucking over dramatic. No one likes it. I don’t like it. It only hurts me. It annoys everyone. It’s pointless and useless and it’s not worth it anymore. I feel as if I am driving my own self crazy by just thinking so fucking much. I thought thinking about everyone else all the fucking time was a good thing. That it made me a better person but it doesn’t. It just makes me worse. It makes me a bitch. It makes me a bad friend. I can’t do anything. I have no skill, I have nothing. I can’t even be a good human being. 

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tags: random  rant