I feel so detached and distant and no one sees this. I feel like I try to reach someone and I’m not even acknowledged…I never put up with this but when you’re constantly told you’re loved by someone you feel obligated to stick around. I guess I don’t need anyone. Or at least everyone needs a break from me and I need a break from everyone. So I am done even trying to reach out and build stronger friendships with the only people that I ever really dared to love after constantly being hurt and betrayed over and over again. I shouldn’t let this ruin it all. I am going to begin focusing on me so this is for the best. I guess all I can thank these people for is pushing me. I wasn’t wronged, but things just don’t feel right. I feel like people either want nothing to do with me or want to hurt me. I am finally moving on, starting now.